It's not the length of life, but the depth of life.
In my last chapter, I mentioned meeting a local man through the Zoosk dating site. We have seen each other often since our first meeting and things are progressing nicely. We have a lot in common and have become very close in a short amount of time. Without telling all my secrets, I want to tell you how I feel about this man.
The last two years have been a big learning experience for me, to say the least. At the time of the divorce I didn't think or believe I could ever find another man to be in my life. But I have worked on myself and been very determined to make my life better and leave the sadness, regret, and disappointment behind. There is no time to be angry, sad, and regretful or backwards looking. I am moving forward and I am very close to being the person I am supposed to be. I haven't been this happy in a very long time. The only thing I wish is that my mom was here to see that I survived the pain of divorce and came through that dark tunnel.
As I began dating several months ago, I wrote down my criteria for what I wanted to find in a mate. This man has them all (and then some) and I am just as surprised as the next person that I have found a man that I could love so quickly. At first, I was meeting him to just be open and have another "growth relationship". The first meeting/date was good, we talked a lot and he was very nice. There was something about him and the way he looked at me. I wasn't sure if I was seeing something that wasn't there because I wanted to or if we genuinely had chemistry and wanted to pursue the relationship. The second date was better. He kissed me on the cheek when I left and I felt a "zing" through my body. I thought it might be the chill of the evening breeze but I couldn't get him out of my mind.
He is very spiritual and believes deeply in God and that was also important for me. We are able to talk about anything and that was another item on my list. He truly cares for me and it not shy about telling me. The words are wonderful to hear and I am starting to believe them. We are just entering our relationship so I know there will be ups and downs. But I am not concentrating on the downs - right now things are great. I am thankful and blessed to have him in my life.
For all you men out there, I have cancelled all my dating site subscriptions and am very happy to not be searching online anymore. I will let you know how things go. Whew! Thank goodness I won't have to go to the prison rodeo to meet a man.
It is never too late, never too late to start over, never too late to be happy. Jane Fonda
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